So, we have our next appointments with the specialists coming up this week and next.  I have been fortunate to have lots going on this month to keep my mind off of things...as much as I can.  However, as the next round of appointments loom, I can't help but start to feel some anxiety.  Last time we met with the cardiologist, we were expecting to get lots of answers to questions...instead, we got more bad news and another round of waiting games.  I am trying to prep myself for the emotions that are sure to come, but I don't know how.

The only thing that keeps me calm is my Heavenly Father and knowing I have an amazing husband who will be going through it all with me.  I have such a peace in my heart knowing that my Heavenly Father is in charge...whatever happens is his will and is what is meant to be.  Even though this fact doesn't make going through this easy, it does make it easier.  I can't imagine how difficult it would be if I had to ponder why this was happening or what we did to deserve this.  We are going though this because it is what Heavenly Father has planned for us...and he truly has our best interest at heart.

Over the past month, I have made it a priority to work on my spiritual growth.  I know that the near future will test everything and I want to be as strong as possible.  I feel closer to my God then I ever have before and I know he is going to lift us through the difficult times.  I pray I will grow the way He wants me to and that He will be there this week as we go to our appointments.