When you think of the story of Tarzan, you think about the unlikely love story between the "ape man" and the sophisticated Jane.  What we usually don't think about is the story of Kala, the "mother gorilla."Right at the beginning of the story, her seemingly perfect life of being married and having a baby, takes a tragic turn when her new little baby is killed.  She then finds Tarzan, now an orphan, and feels driven to care for him.  Why?  Because he fills an empty space in her heart.

Right after her baby dies, Kala sings these words: "No words describe a mother's tears.  No words can heal a broken heart."  Yep, this mother lost it in the middle of the audience...It didn't matter that a monkey was singing it.  The actress playing Kala captured the emotions so perfectly.  The desperation for something to fill the empty space, the constant ache, the need to have something to do.

Yes, I related all too well with Kala's tragic story.  I especially loved the next line of her song, "A dream is gone, but where there is hope, somewhere something is calling for you."  When Joshua died, there was the loss of a dream, at least in this life.  A lot of the things I morn are things that are never to be.  I morn for the birthdays that will never be celebrated with him.  I morn for the joy of seeing him walk for the first time.  I morn never seeing graduations, a wedding, and him having his own children.  Yes, a dream is gone.

But, there is definitely hope! Hope of finding who is calling for me.  Right now, it is my Logan boy. My other child and other future children give me hope.  Also, my Savior Jesus Christ gives me hope of having my whole family together again. 

So, lesson learned...think through the story line before seeing any movie or play in public.  And for goodness sakes, carry tissues with you!!