Wednesday, July 31, 2013
This past Sunday, we had two lessons at church that discussed "trials" and "heartaches" in life. We talked about Joseph Smith and some of the most difficult times in his life. We talked about how it is through these hard times that we become the people we are meant to become in the eyes of God.
I have, for obvious reasons, thought a lot about these very topics over the past year. (in fact...it was one year ago last week that we had our 20 week ultrasound with Joshua and found out about his heart conditions) I really do feel like there have been a lot of blessings that have come into our life because of our experience with Joshua, especially our relationship with God. We had to make a choice early on last year; the choice was between drawing on our faith in God and trusting Him or turning our back on God and just being angry at Him. I tried the angry thing for about 1 hour and knew I couldn't handle that. So, trusting in Him was the only option and I have never looked back.
Now, 1 year after our journey with Joshua began, almost 8 months since he was born, and 5 1/2 months since he past away, I can look back and see the blessings and tender mercies more clearly. God has been with our family every step of this journey and I have no doubt that He will continue to be with our family forever. We are stronger people because of our little Joshua.
Another dear friend of mine and fellow angel mom posted this music video on her facebook page yesterday. This beautiful song was exactly what I have been thinking about for a long time. I love how Hillary Weeks does not down play the difficulty of our situations. What we have to go through is hard and it is ok to want it to be gone. But, how wonderful it is to see where we end up when we can finally have the eyes to recognize our change. Our trials truly do become a "Beautiful Heartbreak".
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