Monday, March 4, 2013

I just miss him today

We all had the experience as a kid with missing our mom or dad.  You know...that first sleep over or that first summer camp.  You knew, deep down, you would see her once the event was over, but in the moment, you just want your mom...and you are sad she isn't there right then.

Today, that is how I feel about Joshua.  I know that I will see him again and I will be able to raise him someday. My testimony of the gospel is so powerful and I am so grateful for that knowledge. Honestly, I can't imagine what it would be like to loose a child without the peace the gospel brings. But today, I just wanted him here. I wanted to hold him and kiss him.  I wanted to look into his eyes and see his smile.  I want to hear his cry again. I just wanted to snuggle him today...and it was really hard not having him here.

I feel like these days are ok to have every once in a while.  It is only natural to miss someone when they are not close.  I will just pull out his little blanket and snuggle that for now...and let the Savior comfort me and help me know that Joshua is close in spirit.

I love you, Joshua...just know that you are missed down here on earth. 


1 comment:

  1. My heart aches for you. You are absolutely right. You are allowed to experience any and all emotions, whenever and as often as they come. I miss him too. I wish that I had been able to kiss his sweet little cheeks and stare into his dark eyes. Hugs to you today.

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Joshua Kent Ipson was born December 1, 2012 with a very complicated combination of congenital heart defects. After 2 1/2 months of fighting for his life, he passed away on February 13, 2013. We invite you to share our experiences as we grieve his loss, rejoice in God's plan, & keep Joshua's message of hope alive.
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