We all had the experience as a kid with missing our mom or dad.  You know...that first sleep over or that first summer camp.  You knew, deep down, you would see her once the event was over, but in the moment, you just want your mom...and you are sad she isn't there right then.

Today, that is how I feel about Joshua.  I know that I will see him again and I will be able to raise him someday. My testimony of the gospel is so powerful and I am so grateful for that knowledge. Honestly, I can't imagine what it would be like to loose a child without the peace the gospel brings. But today, I just wanted him here. I wanted to hold him and kiss him.  I wanted to look into his eyes and see his smile.  I want to hear his cry again. I just wanted to snuggle him today...and it was really hard not having him here.

I feel like these days are ok to have every once in a while.  It is only natural to miss someone when they are not close.  I will just pull out his little blanket and snuggle that for now...and let the Savior comfort me and help me know that Joshua is close in spirit.

I love you, Joshua...just know that you are missed down here on earth.