When we found out about Joshua's heart condition at my 20 week ultrasound, I never imagined the world we would be thrown into.  I seriously can't believe I am part of the world of some of the strongest, most amazing families.  There is so much power and strength to be found...and it is a world that most people never know exist.

 I am sure there will be more posts on this topic in the future, since this is the world I now live in, but I had an experience today that struck me.

One thing we do in our little world is we share blogs...it is a way that many of us feel like we can keep our angels alive and help people feel their special spirits.  When we link our friend's blogs on our sidebar, we usually title it with the little child's name...and you know the precious one has passed away when you add the title "Angel" in front of the name.

I have seen this done for countless other families and remember feeling something different whenever I saw that extra title.  Today, however, I saw the words "Angel Joshua" on a friend's blog and it hit me again...I am the mother of an angel.  I am part of a tight-knit world of women who have buried their children.  I am the mother of "Angel Joshua."
 I guess I am still trying to find myself within this new identity... because I am definitely not the same person I was before my little Joshua came into this world.  My hope is that I can take this new identity and make positive changes in my world.  I hope I can live in the moment and focus on the things that matter most.  I hope I can live up to the title "Angel Mom" and I hope Joshua can be proud of the family that is associated with his new title, "Angel Joshua."